I dont want to survive! I want to live!

Hey. Quite sometime it's been. Every has their worst enemy. Their arch nemesis. Superman had lex Luther. Shawn michaels had bret hart. Goku had frieza. So i should have my enemy. My enemies has its list from mondays canteen menu to the unskippable ads on youtube. But if theres someone who i have a battle with. Hmm. Let me show you my enemy in its physcial form. "I want to go to the gym but.er..." You saw it? You didnt? After the but...the excuse that you cant do it. Thats what.
     I didnt know what to call it. Then i saw a video called "defeat defeat" by hrithik roshan. The concept is pretty simple. Defeat is the biggest demon in your head. Its a voice in your head which tells you that you cant do it. "Enough exercise...stop" "what will everyone think" its only once we overcome that demon in our head then only we can get victory. That voice tells us to be confortable. But victory is never in that confort zone.
       It kinda brings me back to school time when we had all those dreams but we werent able to it because we were too small. You remember all those memories we had when we were small when we has 15min breaks in school. We would do so much in those 15min. Well run to a shop or buy somethin. Or the excitement whrn maam leaves early and givea us another 10minutes. Now here we are in college with some 15hr breaks and i feel that we barely doing anything. Its more of eating. .sleeping....eating and waiting for dinner time so they can sleep again! Have you asked a small child what age he wants to be? Hell say i want to be 21. And when you ask why? Hell say a list of things hell do. The question you should ask yourself is "will that small version of you be happy seeing how you are now?"
        Now everyone must be thinkin "kaushiks asking everyone to act like a child" there are some positives in children which we have to learn. A children's mind is so fresh. Its like theres no adulteration like "i want to do this? Yes i do" its without all the excuses in life and the laziness and the ego. People dont stop playing because they grow old. They grow old because they stop playing. Ive seen my own classmates say "ive gone old. I cant do this!" Me:"nigga you 22! Usually the old people have wisdom and experience! You dont even have that!"
      Usually everyone needs a drive. Everyone's lazy to exercise but if you kidnap that persons daughter and tell him unless you lose weight youll kill his daughter. That man will hit the gym quicker than a subway order! Do you know which people enjoy the most? People who have been diagnosed with a life threatening disease and they have only one month to live. Then they slowly start forgiving people. Living life to the max and doing all the things they want in life. I call those people tubelights! What took you guys so long?! Why must we wait till then? Its as dumb as wanting to get married when yr single and then when you get married you start freaking at your bachelor party! My point is...why must we wait till something bad happens to get that drive. Why cant wr bring that drive during when we are healthy and when the world isnt going to get destroyed. Have you seen anyone like after they get news that they are going to die in a month and theyll be like "in a month right? Good. I have to finish this project in 3 weeks. Phew! Thats a relief." People like that shouldnt get cancer..... They should be shot!
        Theres a lot to say in this! But i feel i could has forgotten something. I personally feel that you should imagine that you have a man next to you noting everything you do and writing a book about you. How would you like your life as a story? Thats how you should live it.

Intercolleges -festivals of youth

Kickass preview no? Dr ninja? One reason ive put a preview is like theres no turning back. So people (if they read this) will be like "sooo...wheres that story of yours?" Or even worse "first you become a doctor! Then create doctor characters! But somehow somehow in going to start a series. You never know where these directors copy stories from. Just imagine me sitting in a theatre 20 years later and chria pratt is like " im not a doctor....im a ninja"
   This entry isnt very specific. These are just random thoughts of mine. The reason im telling all this is usually i feel like telling all this to someone but you never know whos interesting and i dread the thought of boring someone with my views. Unless your my junior and i feeling like showing some senior dominance. Junior:what are you going to do? Make me walk naked? Make me do chores for u all year?!?" Me:even worse! Just listen to my views of life and the world." Junior:"nooooooo!!!!"
        Can u hear that? Thats the sound of people closing the site. Haha. Anyway moving on. Now anyway like i said im known for a lot of dumb shit. One of them in the list is a strange habit of going to college intercollege fests by myself. Sounds retarded. You know a guy travelling hours for just competition. Let me make myself clear.
      Its not about winning. Intercolleges are not annual days in which teachers tell where to sit. How to sit and where to go. In this we the students call the shots. Some teachers try to call the shots but fail. It's like when the professor tells you to come at 5 15 only at 5 30 the boys....will go the bar. Then come. (Why are you looking at me liking drinkin in the daytime is sooo bad. Drinking in night is dangerous. You may trip and fall) Once you go there as a college. Your not the secons year,senior, intern. You will only be known as a person from that college. Cheering people from your college on. Trust me...nothing can bring a college unity more than this atmosphere. Once you go on that stage on that stage. You are your college. Your going to pave yr name in its history books. Maybe not a big impression but your paving your name. Those days everyone will be cheering you on (i cant guarantee what the seniors will do when you get back. They might suspend you upside down and say "soooo.. You think you can dance uh?)
  You meet people who are like you. The same views. Like god made two versions of you for each college. Its almost like " where were all my life?" Or "so im not the only one" life friendships can be made in minutes or days.
Modesty. I thought i was like the shizz. The guy who burns the dance floor who can speak a storm. Etc etc. When i go to fests. I realise....i suck (compared to some people) after an amazing performance a person will ask me "so you going to dance?" Me:after what i sae....no im just going to watch"
  And ya.........also the fashion shows. Lets not forget those :)
     Heres a point. Theres no joy to a performer of any kind may it be of anytype than a person who you have never met or seen complimenting you. Telling you " good job. You did awesome dude!" Once that happens. Youve done it. Youve won it. Screw the prize.
       The whole point of an intercolleges is new lands to conquer. New people to meet or to beat. New views. New places to stay. Making new friends. This is not what i said. This is what a guy i met once said. So im not the only one.
    People inviting you to see you lands,new lands,you get to see a free concert at the pro shows (a concert would be some 2k), you can party at their dj night (going to a club will be some 3k, seeing celebrities (i dont know how you can do that). I mean if you dont go to a college fest when you are incollege then when on earth will you go? How do people say no to this? Just beats me.
      So ok...enough 1 side now its time for a question and answer with the doubts in my head

1.ok...my question. Why go alone? (In a matt damon voice).
Me:first of all. Going alone wasnt my first preference. Its a last resort of noone comea and that happens majority of the times. Sometimea when you do somethin dumb in front of so many people you know it becomes hot news. The more the people you know the more the exaduration. You trip at a wedding. Then they will be talking about that in eeeevery family reunion. Imagine you go alone. Not one single person you kno. You are free to do whatever you want. Noone to say anything. Noone to ask questions. The truth is...maybe i look alone when i go but im never alone. I never feel more comfortable when im there. A person who just stays introverted even though he is surrounded by classmates..that person is alone.
Q2:why dont you study? (Bappi lahiri voice)
Me:to quote joker "people laze around in their rooms for weeks and nobody bats and eye. A guy goes to a intercollege for 3 days and everyone loses their minds!!!
Q3: (george clooney voice): Why all the travelling?
Me:lets say im talking to a girl (im sure i wont be asking this to a guy) what would you want to do once in your life? She would say "ive always wanted to travel. Go to new places." Not just girls. Even some guys say this. Heck! Every movie when a person gets cancer or if he takes a life tragedy then he decides to travel. Meet new people. See the colours of life. When they are some 40 years old. Once they feel the greys of life settling in. My question is.. Why must we wait for tragedy to embrace life? Why cant we accept this attitude when we are at ours twenties. At the peak of our life. When our fire burns brightest. Theres a song lyric from a song called "tonight" by fun. "Tooooonight we are yooooung we are going to set the wooorld on fiiire" how can we set the world on fire if you dont travel the world.
   Im sure some people are still arent convinced with what i said. But you know who will agree with me. People who have finished with college. People who call it the golden days. Who look back with a smile on their face (and then change their expression seeing the baby on their lap). Why do we say school days were amazing. Yes they were. But the reason why we talk about it soo much now is becuse its finished. Once we finish college lets see people talk about school then. People love their twenties when they are 30. Appeciate running after their legs get amputated from diabetes. I am a person who appreciate the beauty of the gifts i have while i do have it. So cage me. People like me are rare ;) grrr. I will love to type more but im at a fest now and the show is going to start. Seeya.